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Month: March 2025

Richard Chamberlain

Richard Chamberlain

i knew him

only

as Father Ralph

in The Thorn Birds

it was a love story

as complex as

love is

to feel it

in all its forms

the sweeping saga

of love and loss

an undeniable force

between them

and in the end

he died

the way he would

have wanted

ever in her arms

among the delicate roses

and the piercing thorns

with the sky above

her tears below

TL

Lily of the Valley

at the end

of the day

she appeared

with a black box

of dirt

and inside the dirt

there were rows of roots

bearing

green leaves

she had been quietly

tending the soil

for two months

time

growing these roots

into leaves

and when i looked down

into the box

of dirt

with green leaves

i was stunned …

i looked at her

and looked down at the leaves

and looked back at her

i knew what she had brought me

she knew what she had brought me

this wasn’t just a box of dirt

and leaves

this was a memory

from long ago

that i had shared with her

when she was

a little girl

telling her how

when i was

a little girl

just her age

my favorite flower was

a tiny white bell

that smelled like the most beautiful perfume

in the world

and that nobody can bottle it

i told her how i’d never forgotten

what it smelled like

and how i hoped one day

she would find the flower

and breathe it in

i tried three times

to find it

once a nursery promised

they could order it

but after checking back

a time or two

it was not to be

another time a florist had my hopes up

convinced they had the flower

in stock

but it turned out

not to be

my flower

but something called

Leucojum

and from a distance

it looks the same

with its tiny white bells

but closeup

the green dots at the bottom of the bells

ring wrong

and the missing perfume

is a dead giveaway

another time

i found some bulbs at a big box store

and potted them straight away

and watered ‘em and waited

and waited

and waited

but the bells

did not appear

my daughter was 3

when she first asked me

what my favorite flower was

now she’s 18

out on her own

but she came back

in the middle of March

with a black box

of dirt

bearing green leaves

that may or may not

sprout into tiny white bells

of perfume

and while it would be wonderful

if they did

just knowing

she didn’t forget …

how she’s been

sitting in a horticulture class

in college

learning all about soil

and how to treat it

to grow whatever it is

you wanna grow

so when she saw the bulbs

in a big box store

two months ago

she bought ‘em straight away

and found a black box

and a bag of soil

armed with the knowledge

of what the soil needs …

it was hard for her to leave home

it was hard to watch her go

it’s been hard ever since

but last night

my 3-year-old daughter

came back

home

to surprise me

she did not forget ….

TL

If i had a Hammer

If i had a Hammer

i remember

johnny

and his hammer

and how he never

stood still

for too long

a time

he never stopped

being busy

his girls were growing up

and out …

as he hammered nails

relentlessly

day in and day out

all around the house

stopping only

to answer

their call

or text

if he sat too long

or thought too hard

about it

he’d never get back

up …

i remember thinking

i gotta do that

when it’s my time

my turn

i gotta do that

i gotta do what johnny did

i gotta stay busy

and not sit too long

or think too hard

about it

TL

Spinning in Circles

Spinning in Circles

my Amazon order

just shipped

it’s almost 2

to let the dog out

shoulda went to the gym

but i’m blue

and it’s cold

and i don’t know

but

it should be warmer

the ocean used to be warmer

for spring

b

r

e

a

k

now it’s a heartache

where’d the sun go

maybe it’s where that bird

flew off to

that little blue bird

that won’t be caged

like the lion

like the innocent

it’s all relevant

or irrelevant

depending

on the

who

what

when

where

and why

it’s 2

TL

Observation

Observation

the pollen

arrives

at the same time

the clocks

spring forward

Sunday

yellow dust

in the air

and then it’s gone

a bed of grass

filled with flowers

as the butterflies

blink across

the blue bird

in the window

sits for a second

as the squirrels race

up and down the tree

so much activity

even now

the ants are rallying

plotting and planning

how to get in the car

each day is different

underwater

the fish are zooming

around

not worried about

the hook

or the crane

they know how

to adapt

to adjust

animals are good

at that

humans

not so much

TL

Stuck in Place

Stuck in Place

for 18

y e a r s

i wrapped

my identity

up

into a being

who inevitably

left

and for 6 months

now

i’ve been trying to

figure out

how to unstick

from being stuck

i lie in bed at night

thinking

and wake up

thinking

and the other morning

my thoughts were

all over the place

mostly thinking about my dad

and those 6 months we had

September to February

and then as i lie there thinking

about that

it dawns on me

that that’s exactly the time-frame

she’s been gone

September to February

and now it’s 5 days

into March

TL

Mindset

Mindset

Sunday went

and wore off

all the junk food

i ate Saturday

after a year at the gym

sparring the bag

the endurance level is evident

you go in feeling heavy

and leave feeling light

the discipline of life

is in the details

in the habits

in the action

the 1-2 punch

seems like nothing

but it builds

the body back

you can feel your heart beating

you can feel your lungs breathing

you can feel yourself reaching

and returning

to some part of yourself

you forgot

was there

all along

TL

The Day

The Day

bought some

new sunglasses

online

and they came in

on time

so i put ‘em on

today

a new shade

to hide the tears

as i sat chewing chips

in the car

then some chocolate

followed by an elephant ear

which is kinda like a giant sugar cookie

‘cept it’s flakey

anyways

the walk earlier wore off

it was supposed to be warmer

today

but there’s a distinct chill

in the air

so the golf i planned to play

in shorts

turned into a turn around town

listening to tunes

thinking the whole time

‘bout food …

like tacos

fried chicken

pizza

fried fish

tacos

stopped to read

for a bit

then stopped

and watched the wind

move

would have went

to a movie

but nothing worth

seeing

in either theatre

so instead

pulled into a park

on the way home

and watched a bunch of kids

kick up the dust

bent on being Beckham

they sure gave it their all

like they do on the regular

there were no cameras

no first place trophy

or cashier’s check

and still they played

like there was no tomorrow

just today

and that made me

smile

as the sun lowered down

somehow …

i muddled through

the way that i do

TL

(March 1, 2025)

Dear Dad,

Dear Dad,

the snow

has disappeared

now the daffodils

are here

appear and disappear

in each season

you gain something

and you lose something

and the more wonderful it is

the harder it is

to let it go

as you well know

i tend to keep things

too many things

and sometimes those things

hold me back

from living

after you died

the seasons were

the same

until i began

to live again

i’ve experienced a lot

of living

since you’ve been gone

and felt the seasons

change

within

and yet i feel you everywhere

in all things

as Roberta Flack once said,

“Love is a song …”

you were my first song

and i guess that’s why

it still hurts

inside

it was wonderful

daffodils in snow

TL

(March 1, 1993)