Last updated on July 1, 2021
Dying Inside
the woman
at the window
knows my order
12 egg rolls
and a drink
I like it
when things are
consistently good
so, I don’t deviate
set my timer for 15
and walk on over
to the grocery store
to grab what I need
and go
but yellow
stops me
mid-stride
it’s a baby giraffe
I look at him
and grab his little ear
and swipe him through
self-checkout
and stick him
in the passenger seat
then go get my 12 egg rolls
and get back in the car
devouring 4
as fat splats
hit the windshield
I look over at the giraffe
he has a permanent smile
you’d never know if he was sad
my daughter is out there …
somewhere
driving a gray car
with a yellow sticker: Student Driver
Monday was a blur
yesterday
I ate chicken in my car
and cried
I stopped eating chicken
a few years back
later on
I ended up at the range
and chipped a ton of balls down the hill
and whacked the L out of ‘em back up the hill
onto the green
and felt better
today
I bought a balloon
a baby giraffe balloon
that makes me smile
there was a time
when a big balloon
was all she wanted
2 more days to go …
this whole “letting go” thing
jest ain’t my thing
it ain’t my thing
IT AIN”T MY THING
what am I gonna do
tomorrow
and the day after
that
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