In the Kingdom
i can’t
re
member
a time
when i wasn’t
living in fear
it is so much
a part
of who i am
that i cannot
imagine
a life
without it
i have been shaped
by fear
from the moment
i was left
to the moment
he left
to the moment
she left
to the moment
i realized
i was
truly and utterly
a l o n e
no human form
i could go to
and tell
what was happening
in my small life
i lived in constant fear
and got good
at hiding my self
within my self
in order to survive
experiencing a death
so sudden
would further shape
my fear
i would always
be afraid
to love anybody
ever again
that awfully much
for it can break you
up
and leave you in
too many pieces
to pick up
and no matter how old
you get
you’ll spend the rest of your life
looking
searching …
for some speck
of who you were
before being
blown away …
i feel i’ve found
more than a speck
more than a piece
but whole sheets
page after page
of sheet music
blowing in the wind
that sings from the sea
and reaches
back
way back
to the part of me
that still believes
in fairy tales
and happily-ever-after
The End
TL